Not So MaDcAp!!

{Warning:The format of this blog might irritate you! & this happens to be one of the stupidest & most boring things I ever posted!}
An incident. A bit feeble for others & so they might have not noticed. But It did have an impact on me & left me pondering over it. My good friend Murrari(Name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) arranged a B'day treat for all of his school pals. The main motive was to introduce his charming & lovely girlfriend Katrina(Name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) to all his school pals. We had snacks, ice-creams & shakes at TNT(We made sure Murrari's wallet was as light as a feather after we were done eating!). Now, we decided to go & brighten up at Shahpura Lake. It was all boring for me(Sorry Murrari! But that is the truth!). Two of my very good female pals were missing. I was only there for the sake of Murrari & Katrina and Shivam(Name not changed to avoid issues of any sort!). Now I have this uncanny habit of making of my pals in front of their beloved sweethearts. I used to push Ace(Again name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) to the verge of committing suicide by assaulting his character & past in front of his girlfriend. It was great fun actually! Now at Murrari's treat, I did the same thing!
Now a word or two about Murrari. He is a nice, sweet chap who wouldn't retaliate if you make fun of him or even punch him in the face. But but but! With his precious around, he turned into a fierce lion & that part I didn't see that coming. I passed a sarcastic comment(My sarcastic nature is a result of Ritu's company!). It was passed to degrade Murrari's honor in front of Katrina(Like I used to do with Ace!) but a very simple & highly effective reply from him made me feel like a last night's leftover supper. He simply said, "Buddy, you are saying this out of pure desperation & frustration of not succeeding in Love!" Everyone laughed. I felt a sudden rush of several emotions. I felt embarrassed, guilty, foolish etc, all at the same time! Fortunately I was able to focus all the attention to the gay activities of some chaps nearby! I minor incident, but it made me think! I hate myself when I think about stuff because it usually introduces me to me ROTLU side! Am I being the jealous kind who feels deprived of what others are happy with? As I mentioned before, I hate to think about such stuff. They make me jump to conclusions about myself & most of them state that I am hopeless! Worse, it makes me wake up at night to create blogs when I should be preparing for the next examination! Worse, you guys read this whole crap-o-nonsense & feel like murdering me! But what can I do. These things pushes me to a state of Full-On idiocy! I will now abruptly end this post. Please don't kill me after reading this utter nonsense!
{The incident was real & did make me think & all, but I didn't jot down that part because this time I reached a subtle conclusion that the more I think about it, the more are the chances of my getting farther from insanity. So it was best if I forgot it!}