Not A single Day Thats Perfect!!

{Another of my boring blogs!}
Weeks have passed since I actually enjoyed anything. But yesterday everything felt real good. I usually go to sleep at 2 or 3 am & wake up at 5.30 because of the power cuts which results in the ac switching off & which in turn invites mosquitoes! But yesterday, no power cuts! A good night's sleep in weeks! I wake up to find that my PC didn't shut down after the cut(I leave it ON to let the downloading continue!) & I find that the downloading speed was double the usual speed! My mood started building up! Had the usual milk & bread for breakfast but they tasted real good! Then I almost solved 90% of the complex crossword puzzle in one go! Sexy Man! Now with so much of positive energy in me, I went for studies. Unit V of ATM completed in one go within 3 hours! Mom didn't scold me to go & take a bath but I was so full of positiveness that I decided to go & take it before I get scolded! Power Cut at 1pm which was bound to last till 3pm! But I had a very heavy lunch & that made me sleepy plus the temperature was lower than the previous day's temperature. Fell asleep without any trouble! I woke up at 5.45pm(Yeah! that long) to find Rishi bhai's sms that he is waiting at Roopesh bhai's place. Now I have been going out almost everyday wandering here & there but it just didn't feel great. But it was different right now. I was in a cheerful mood. A PANAUTII free day is splendid in its own way!
Had snacks & then went to Dam for a walk with my lot. It was soothing. I returned home to find my favorite cousin home. She bought the specially cooked meat balls! She is always good fun! Certain issues that were hammering me for days lifted off after a phone call! I was bound to get sweet dreams! But but but, there always the bloody but. I had meat balls which my cousin bought. See I love Non-Veg delicacies. But I have got allergy from red meat! But I ate the balls thinking that the anti-allergy pills are in my closet. I forgot that Dad took them along in his kit! Now here I am restless, with one eye swollen, considerably high amount of itching in my back & no sleep. I am literally dancing trying to shake off the itchy feeling! & certainly I have realized that it all comes down to one thing. No day is perfect. WHEN ALL IS WELL, SOMETHING IS BOUND TO GO HORRIBLY WRONG! Bloody Hell!

Tears in rain

(This Is Not A Poem. Just Lyrics Of A Song We Made!)
I Want To Cry,
I Don't Know Why, All I Know Is I Want To Cry!
My Eyes Get Wet When I Think About Her,
The Trauma Of Not Being Able To Let Go Off Her!
I Feel So Helpless When She Looks At Me,
For She Sees Me But Choose To Ignore Me!
All This Make Me Want To Shed Tears,
But How Can I Show My Weakness By Crying!
I wait for the rain to come,
Maybe I can deceive all by camouflaging my tears!
Or If Only My Eyes Were Made Of Stones,
Nobody Will Notice My Feebleness And The Pain Then!
But, If I Don't Cry, How Will I Forget Her?
For If I Let My Tears Fall, They Might Take With Them My Feelings For Her!

Not So MaDcAp!!

{Warning:The format of this blog might irritate you! & this happens to be one of the stupidest & most boring things I ever posted!}
An incident. A bit feeble for others & so they might have not noticed. But It did have an impact on me & left me pondering over it. My good friend Murrari(Name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) arranged a B'day treat for all of his school pals. The main motive was to introduce his charming & lovely girlfriend Katrina(Name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) to all his school pals. We had snacks, ice-creams & shakes at TNT(We made sure Murrari's wallet was as light as a feather after we were done eating!). Now, we decided to go & brighten up at Shahpura Lake. It was all boring for me(Sorry Murrari! But that is the truth!). Two of my very good female pals were missing. I was only there for the sake of Murrari & Katrina and Shivam(Name not changed to avoid issues of any sort!). Now I have this uncanny habit of making of my pals in front of their beloved sweethearts. I used to push Ace(Again name changed to avoid issues of any sort!) to the verge of committing suicide by assaulting his character & past in front of his girlfriend. It was great fun actually! Now at Murrari's treat, I did the same thing!
Now a word or two about Murrari. He is a nice, sweet chap who wouldn't retaliate if you make fun of him or even punch him in the face. But but but! With his precious around, he turned into a fierce lion & that part I didn't see that coming. I passed a sarcastic comment(My sarcastic nature is a result of Ritu's company!). It was passed to degrade Murrari's honor in front of Katrina(Like I used to do with Ace!) but a very simple & highly effective reply from him made me feel like a last night's leftover supper. He simply said, "Buddy, you are saying this out of pure desperation & frustration of not succeeding in Love!" Everyone laughed. I felt a sudden rush of several emotions. I felt embarrassed, guilty, foolish etc, all at the same time! Fortunately I was able to focus all the attention to the gay activities of some chaps nearby! I minor incident, but it made me think! I hate myself when I think about stuff because it usually introduces me to me ROTLU side! Am I being the jealous kind who feels deprived of what others are happy with? As I mentioned before, I hate to think about such stuff. They make me jump to conclusions about myself & most of them state that I am hopeless! Worse, it makes me wake up at night to create blogs when I should be preparing for the next examination! Worse, you guys read this whole crap-o-nonsense & feel like murdering me! But what can I do. These things pushes me to a state of Full-On idiocy! I will now abruptly end this post. Please don't kill me after reading this utter nonsense!
{The incident was real & did make me think & all, but I didn't jot down that part because this time I reached a subtle conclusion that the more I think about it, the more are the chances of my getting farther from insanity. So it was best if I forgot it!}